Five years ago, I couldn’t even get out of bed in the morning. It would take pain reliever pills and back braces to get my up out of bed. I felt so heavy all the time. All. The. Time. I fought with myself to move and do. I suffered from flu like feelings all of the time. I felt powerless and hopeless and I needed help.
I went to the doctor. A lot. I saw a primary physician who told me that I had Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis. I went to an endocrinologist. He took test after test only to discover that not only did I have Hashimoto’s, but I also had the Rheumatoid Arthritis markers. He then sent me to a rheumatologist who then diagnosed me with Anyklosing Spondylitis, as well.
So there I sat with three diagnosis and no real treatment plan of how to actually FEEL better.
For nearly one year, I followed the treatment plans they set for me. I took about nine different medications, including injectables and still… I didn’t get better. Most of the time, I thought I was going crazy because I had so many medications and doctors to juggle. My health became my full time job so when I could no longer function at my high powered corporate job, I fell apart totally. Burn out, chronic pain, fatigue. It was all there and still, there were no answers.
I was fully ready to succumb to my diagnosis and try for disability with the government because there was no way my body would allow me to work a job again. My body was in control 100 percent of the time.
It took me several months to realize that I was actually very much in control of my own body, my own energy system – but I wasn’t paying attention. I was listening to the doctors and what everyone else thought I should do with my body. I wasn’t really listening to what my body was needing from me. I like to explain it in this way – I was trying to push a square peg through a round hole over and over again, expecting different results.
I began my quest to understand my energetic system and how it relates to the metaphysical properties of traumas. It was no surprise that when I found out autoimmune disorders typically manifest after a huge crisis in our lives. My husband had been cheating on me for about a year. When I found out, I was devastated but didn’t work to heal myself around the betrayal. Instead, my body developed a condition for me to heal instead. When I started to heal the betrayal, the symptoms of those conditions started to go away.
Anxiety and depression went hand in hand with this journey, so I also looked at that. I was able to understand the feelings better and what they meant for me. I was now working with my body, in a powerful alignment of trust and understanding. My body was talking and I was listening.
My main purpose or mission in life now is to help others start REALLY listening to their bodies. What is your pain trying to tell you? What haven’t you healed in relation to your place in this world with yourself and with others?
The answers are all there INSIDE OF YOU. You are a powerful being and you can heal this, too.